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Monday, November 07, 2005

Wow so I haven't posted since September! It's not that I haven't had the time its just that not a whole lot has happened to actually write about so whats the point? Anyways, still not a whole lot going on and I kinda have to go soon so I will just try to give a quick run down of things. . .
I got the role of the Queen in the Chamber Choir madrigals this year so thats exciting!
Lau's show Metamorphoses opens this Wed so heartfelt "break a leg" goes out to her and the rest of the cast and crew!
My sister's senior musical opens this week as well so Break a leg Jaz!
A tornado hit parts of the tristate this week and did alot of damage including destroying my uncle's apt but at least he and my cousin are alright. Pray for all those who were deeply affected by it!
Finally the biggest game of the NFL season is here - the Colts vs the Pats! Can the Colts finally beat them this year? I hope so!!!
Well, not much else happening so I will leave it at that. Later y'all!

Camille...**Since youve Been Gone**...At11/07/2005 08:45:00 AM

Monday, September 26, 2005

Not really much going on again but I am bored and thought I would just post a little something. Had a kick ass highlighter party this weekend which was tons of fun. I was so excited with who all came. I got to know some new people and I got to see an old friend which was so awesome! There were some interesting things that happen but thats always the case with one of our parties. LOL Oh I forgot! On Friday, Amy and I went to Fast Eddy's to party down, and Michael Rosenbaum from Smallville was there! He is from this area and was back in town. He actually graduated from Castle High School with my Aunt Somer. Anyways, he ended up singing Summer of 69 and Jesse's Girl with the band. It rocked! Other than that, not much else is happening. Still trying to find a job, a guy, and so on and so forth. . .blah blah blah. LOL Well, thats all for now. Lates

Camille...**Since youve Been Gone**...At9/26/2005 11:19:00 AM

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You give and take equally in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

Camille...**Since youve Been Gone**...At9/26/2005 11:10:00 AM

Monday, September 19, 2005

Not a whole lot going on right now. I am sitting in the computer lab because I don't have class again until 3 and its pointless for me to go back to the apt especially since we are without internet still. So how's life been for me you may ask? Well, its been good for the most part. Class is class as always and I am still without a new job which means still without money which freaks my parents out bc Iknow its added stress for them. But by the same token, its added stress for me as well. My first priority is getting through school and getting my degree in theatre, and with my schedule it is very hard to get a solid job. So trying to balance all of that can be difficult and extremely stressful. Oh well. Anyways, so my friend Amy came down for the weekend again and we all had alot of fun. I am really excited that my 2 best friends get along so well. It makes me so happy. I love them both dearly. But back to the weekend, Friday Lauren, Me, Amy, Layne, and Kevin chilled at our apt and watch The Princess Bride (which is such a wonderful movie) and Lau, Layne, and I taught Kevin how to play Egyptian Ratscrew. Good times. Then Amy, Kevin and I went out to Fast Eddy's and had a blast. Things got VERY INTERESTING to say the very least. I am still confused but hey what can I say. That must be the blonde in me. It was fun though! I enjoyed myself. When I came back to the apt, I had to tell Lau everything so we talked for a bit, but then after I had changed into pjs her and Layne called me into the living room and attacked me with super soakers! They pulled a good one on me, but IT'S ON NOW! LOL! Then Saturday, I had callbacks for Metamorphoses which I felt went pretty well, and I think I did really strong work but I still don't think I will get cast bc I am in production for The Birthday Party as the ASM and that takes away for Metamorphoses rehearsals. I would be lying if I said that I wouldn't be disappointed about not being cast bc in all honesty I would love to be a part of this show. Its an amazing piece and I love its content. If I had known that being an ASM would effect my chances for Metamorphoses, I wouldn't have done it and I would have waited for Metamorphoses. But thats in the past now, and nothing can be done about it. All I can do now is hope that John knows that my work is strong and I will do everything whatever it takes to not be a weak link in the show if I get cast. Good luck to all who auditioned you were all amazing by the way! I know whoever gets cast will make the show a very memorable one. Anyways, after callbacks, Amy and chilled while Lau got ready for a wedding she was attending with Layne. (She looked hot by the way!) Then Amy and I went to Club Baja that night with her friend Blaine. We had so much fun. Ya gotta love it when you have random guys buy drinks for you. Hehe. Then Sunday, I watched the Colts play and beat the Jacksonville Jaguars which I will admit the Colts didn't have their strongest game but at least they won unlike the Patriots who got beat by the Carolina Panthers! Whats up with that?! HA! LOL! Sorry Lau, had to. Anyways, then my weekend was over bc I had to go and perform my duties as ASM for Birthday Party rehearsals. It was just stressful but I came home to Lau who had bought Rocky Road from Coldstone. So we ate that, played some cards, and we ended the night by watching wonderful 80s movies like The Breakfast Club and Sixteen Candles while eating popcorn. I love spending time with my Glinda! Now its Monday, and although my Monday schedule isn't bad, I still hate it bc it just means another full week of going insane with classes. Plus, I just want the cast list to be posted for Metamorphoses just so I can be put out of my misery. On the somewhat plus side, we got our midterm pieces for Musical Theatre today. I am not sure yet where I like mine bc I really have never heard of it so I guess I'll just have to see. I would have preferred someone else's but I'll just have to make do with what I got. Who knows, maybe I will end up loving it! Anyways, thats about it for now. Later y'all!

Camille...**Since youve Been Gone**...At9/19/2005 11:16:00 AM

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Wow! It's been over a month since I last posted! Well lets see what is new in my life. I started classes which has had its ups and downs. I enjoy seeing all my USI friends again but I am already stressed out by the amount of work that I am facing. On the plus side of being back in Eville, I am currently living in my new beautiful apt at the no longer USI owned Golden Towers with my bestest friend the amazing and talented Lauren Tait! It is awesome! I love it! It is definitely gonna be a great year just bc of that and the things that we do! LOL I am currently ASM for The Birthday Party. It's. . . well. . . interesting. I am not a big fan of the play but its ok. I am at least getting some stage managing credits for my resume. Speaking of stage managing, I miss the cast of I Love You You're Perfect Now Change. That was some good times. In reality, I just miss Colorado and the people in general! My Tap House crew . . . *sniff sniff* I wish I could just see them all again even for a short period of time. But maybe I will get to bc it is very possible that I might be going back there next summer to do another show for the Great American Laughing Stock Company! YAY! Yes, the director has already said if I want a job I have it! Yay for connections! Anyways, back to the shows here. I have an audition for Metamorphoses tomorrow. I am nervous and excited all at the same time! I am excited about the show bc its an amazing piece but I am also excited just to audition bc it has been since Little Shop that I last auditioned for something. For me, thats a long time. I am very nervous because I don't feel confident in being cast. I am afraid because I have been in all the shows that this director has directed since he's been here and because of that he might not cast me because he might want to give others a chance. I would be so disappointed because I really love this show but I guess I can't always get what I want. Just wish me luck with the auditions. As for other things in my life, I am trying to find a job but so far thats been difficult with my schedule. The boy situation is as it always is - non-existent! Well, I guess I wouldn't necessarily say that bc I have a really messed up situation going on right now with someone but that is all twisted drama right now that I would prefer not be. It really sucks and if you know me and you get to see me a lot (*cough* Lauren *couch*) you know the toll that it is taking on me. I should do the smart thing and just get myself away from it but its not that easy for me to deny my feelings and walk away, as it prolly isn't for most people. But anyways, I don't feel like getting into it more than I already have. At least I have my good guy friends. Especially my friend, Joey, who is over in Iraq right now. He calls me all the time and it makes me happy - even though he always makes fun of me. LOL He is doing very well. He gets to come home in December - finally! I know its only been a year but it seems like forever. Please keep him in your prays so he returns home safely as well as the other soldiers over there. My family is doing very well. We just had my dad's family reunion which was pretty fun besides some minor complications. My cousin got engaged while there which is cool yet depressing since she is 18! Alot of the family was coupled off, just like at my other cousin's wedding, which sucked for me. But on the plus side, I did get to spend alot of time with my "nieces" (my cousins' babies) Cassi and Laci. They are so adorable! I love them to death but I hardly get to see them now that I am back in Eville, so this was nice to get to spend time with them. Other than all of that, I have pretty much updated on all the happenings in my life. Stay tuned and hopefully I will be able to post more often.

Camille...**Since youve Been Gone**...At9/15/2005 11:35:00 AM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Hmm... so whats new with me? Not really a whole lot. I had a very good weekend because it was Strassenfest weekend! Gotta love the Strassenfest! Wed and Thurs of the week I went out with Erin and Katie and we had fun going to the bars. . . as always! Then Friday I went to the fest with my cousin Sayward and we had a blast! We came back that night and the 2 of us along with Jaz, Brandon, Jade, Javier, and Darrah played Ring of Fire which was alot of fun. Then Sat Katie and Erin came to Jasper to come hang out with me at the fest. We went to watch my sisters kick ass in the Talentspiel (which they won!) and then we went to the Bier Garten with some of my family. Good times! I ran into some people that I knew in high school which was cool. Sunday was the traditional BBQ that my family does every year. Good food great people! We also drank some more, and Sayward and I got crazy! We weren't drunk. . . just goofballs! I had so much fun with her this weekend! We even have new nicknames for each other! She calls me "Mil" and I call her "Sayd". We think their fun. Now that the weekend is over, everyone is just relaxing and trying to recover from the weekend. Prolly the most eventful thing is that everyone is dying their hair today. I did Jade, Darrah, and Arielle's. I think I might do mine too. I am thinking of becoming a brunette. I just want to try something different. Well anyways, I really don't have much else to say and its almost suppertime. Have a good one y'all!

Camille...**Since youve Been Gone**...At8/09/2005 04:19:00 PM

Sunday, July 31, 2005

They say that everything happens for a reason but how do we know that for sure? Are we always able to connect a reason to the random moments that happen everyday of our lives? The more I think about it the more cynical I become towards that saying. Especially when it comes to guys. For example, what is the reason for meeting a totally amazing guy and hitting it off so great with him and eventually falling for him only to be disappointed by the fact that he doesn't feel that way for you? Or what is the reason for having a wonderful night with someone when you know that it can't last bc that person belongs to someone else? Or why does everyone around you get to be happy about being with someone they care for while you are sitting on the sidelines alone and miserable? What is the reason for that? I thought that when someone thought up the saying everything happens for a reason it meant a good reason. The only reason I can see for situations like this is that you are being tortured and hurt. That for some reason someone doesn't see you fit enough to deserve happiness and enjoy getting what you so desperately desire. Maybe thats where everyone makes the mistake. Maybe because its such a highly used saying they automatically attach a positive connotation to it and thats where they went wrong (including me). In reality, noone ever said 'everything happens for a GOOD reason' or 'everything happens for a BAD reason'. They just said A REASON. I don't know if I am making any sense whatsoever. All I know is that nothing really makes sense to me anymore. I am not looking for help and I don't even know if I am looking for an answer bc I don't know if there is an answer out there. I was just looking for an outlet. I had thoughts that I just need to get out, and that's what I have done. I know I will be fine. I always am. So for the very few of you who read this, don't worry about me.

"Reflective thinking turns experience into insight." - John Maxwell

Camille...**Since youve Been Gone**...At7/31/2005 01:32:00 PM

Friday, July 29, 2005

I have been back in Jasper for almost a week now and for once it hasn't been dull. Don't get me wrong. . .I miss Steamboat major but I have actually had things to do here for once. The day I got was my dad's bday so we had a big BBQ. . . mmm I missed my parents cooking. I got to see Lacey (my cousin Heidi's new baby) finally! She is such a babydoll! And I got to see Cassie (Mandi's baby) and she has gotten so big since I last saw her! Adorable as always! Monday and Tuesday I pretty much relaxed with the exception of going with Mandi and Jaz to get our nails done for Mandi's wedding. Wednesday I went to Evansville and watched the Eville Otters lose the baseball game but that was ok because I got to see people I haven't seen in a while! I went to Katie's new apt which is nice and we got ready bc we went out to Time Out Lounge where we met up with Erin! We were having fun drinking and dancing and then all of a sudden we run into a friend of ours from VU! I hadn't seen him in forever! He hung out with us for the rest of the night which was really cool because we got to catch up. I drove back to Jasper Thurs morning because I was supposed to go out with Mandi that night but she ended up cancelling bc she was so stressed about the wedding. So after hearing from Erin and Jeff, I decided to go back to Eville to go hang out with them all again - this time at Sportsman's. Alot more ppl went with us this time, mostly ones I didn't know, but I still had fun! A little too much maybe? I still don't know. Tonight I had Mandi's wedding rehearsal which went well and so I am sure everything will be great tomorrow. . . minus the fact that I will be pretty much the only w/o a date at the reception. Too bad I don't $3000 bc I could've pulled a Debra Messing like in The Wedding Date and rented an escort. LOL I swear that movie is going to be me someday at my sisters' weddings. Anyways, after tomorrow the next few days should be pretty calm until I go back to Eville next week to go out with everyone again! Can't wait! Then next weekend is Strassenfest!!! If you are in the area you should definitely make a trip to Jasper for the fest! I am excited bc now I am old enough to go to the beer gardens! YAY! Anyone want to go. . . call me! Other than that. . . not much is going on. I think I will just leave it here and go relax so g'night y'all!

Camille...**Since youve Been Gone**...At7/29/2005 07:49:00 PM